I’m the kind of person that feels “deprived” of friends easily.
I may not say it, you may not see it, but not seeing them for a few days makes me feel lonely. It may sound a little exaggerating, but they are my family. They are the ones that I share my joy and sorrow with, they are the ones that understand me, they are the ones that genuinely cares about me. These are the things I don’t and never will get from home.
Friends > Family to me. You might see it as that I am unfilial but whatever, you won’t know what I’ve been feeling in this house since I was born.
Yes I get really jealous and envious when I see my friends posting pictures of them with their parents, their siblings, and describing how close they are. I will never be able to experience that, not in this life. Sometimes, tears just fall out automatically when looking at how blessed they are.
Because this difference exist, some of our perspectives may differ. For example, sometimes I don’t get why some people are so “family orientated” and they always neglect their friends. But in actual fact, family is their number one love and that is what is most important to them. For me, I am the more “friends orientated” kind because of my family situation but others may see it as I’m a rebellious or unfilial kid that refuses to spend time with his family. Roughly get what I mean eh?
Things are not that bad after all, at least I have friends to fall back on. Thanks everyone who was once there for me. Lets get tougher together yea.